current feeling

It's hard to say what my feeling is. Recently, everyday, when I sit in the front of my computer, I feel sad since I have no idea about my road. The best way to overcome it is just doing things and forget it.
Now I am more and more sure that I am a diligent person and I don't need to blame myself of laziness. I am not lazy at all. I feel in dark and don't know where the hope is.
But no matter how, there is the hope and I will find it sooner or later.